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A person may believe that innocence is something that is fought for, something that is earned, or something that given to an individual by the consent of a court. In reality, innocence is something that can only be obtained if it is preserved. Innocence is quite possibly one of the is hardest things to recapture once it is lost, and the struggle to mend it involves much more than the agreement of the law. This being said, an innocent person is quite possibly one of the hardest things to find in society these days... Take Kashif Parvaiz for example, a husband and father who helped to plot the murder of his very own wife. While taking a walk with his wife and three year old son, a group of men mysteriously appeared appeared behind Kashif and his family, only to kill his wife, while Kashif escaped with wounds alone. The child was not harmed. Kashif claimed that the strange group of men attacked his family out of hate, and that there was no connection between the murder and any other previous encounters with the men. Investigators quickly dismissed this story upon the discovery of a long history of text messages which blatantly pointed an elaborate plan, consisting of the killing of Kashif's wife, most likely in order to free him from the responsibilities of being a husband. Needless to say, he was arrested (ironically, on the day of his wife's funeral), and he is being held on $1 million bail. Now, after hearing the horrendous story of man who plans to kill the women he's been married to for more than 6 years, most people would say nothing other than he deserves to go to jail (Don't get me wrong; I am one of those people). To put it simply, he broke the law, and now he has to face justice, and there's not one thing wrong with that. Yet the worst part of the whole debacle for Kashif is the fact that he has to live with the guilt for the rest of his life. Not only are the metal bars and cinder blocks of prison holding him captive, but the very essence of his spirit holds him captive. This is what it means to loose innocence. Not always is it on such a colossal scale as the story I've told, but anytime you're incapable of feeling good about a decision, you loose part of your innocence. Anytime you do something that goes against what you truly feel is right, you loose part of your innocence. Whenever there is the slightest bit of guilt in your mind, there is a loss of innocence.